Why do I let you make me feel like shit?
When you get angry or upset with me it’s never a fight.
You give me the silent treatment
And I’m left trying to figure out what I did to wrong you.
I try to understand how this escalated
Meanwhile, I know that I can’t ask you,
that I can’t talk to you.
Whether I understand you or not I still try my very best to earn your forgiveness,
to make it right.
But you never give me the satisfaction.
Give it a day
And you’ll go back to normal,
you expect me to forget it too.
Sometimes you’re just in a mood and I can tell.
I walk on eggshells around you
never knowing what will make you snap.
And when you do you yell and scream
All I can do is take it.
Why do I let you make me feel like shit?
You are intent on proving me wrong.
I wish you were on my side.
It’s like you can’t stand my intelligence.
When I have a problem with someone else,
Why are you never on my side?
You encourage me to look at it differently,
But you will never do the same.
Why do I let you make me feel like shit?
Aside from that you go above and beyond for me.
You let me depend on me for physical, financial, and emotional support.
In contrast to everyone else in my world you look like a God.
I’m convinced that you’re the best person in my life so maybe I let you get away with everything.
Why do I let you make me feel like shit?
Is this love?
If this is love then no wonder you’re the closest person to me.
I push everyone away because I’m so terrified of getting too close.
Terrified of getting hurt.
I always thought it was because they pushed me away for no reason.
But I push people away for the smallest of flaws,
For the tiniest of perceived slights.
Just like you.
I believe in trusting no one except you,
In never getting too close to anyone but you,
I believe in loving everyone conditionally except for you.
So, why do I let you make me feel like shit?
Well, who else is going to love me as much as you do?
